troubled year

troubles and worries seem to be stacking up alot,

this year itself put more than enough of worries in my mind.

well it started off with my car accident,

thank god no one was hurt

then things got better after that for sure.

i had great times spent

good memories to remember

but right now,

everything seems to be wrong.

my mom is getting an operation on tuesday.

and lets pray she'll be fine after that.

sometimes i feel like running away,

but doing that does not solve anything.

i've spent sleepless nights thinking on how and what should i do?

was what i did a right or wrong move?

and i always come up with no solutions,

i always wonder if things can get better?

or will it just vanish and things will just be different

will things fall back into place

or fall into pieces that could never be put back together?

the only thing i could do is convince myself

things would be better

things are great

be happy

but as long as i can do it

i still have a limit to it

you always ask if we have problems

you always tried to make us open up to you

of course we have problems,

its only that we dare not open to you

putting a fake smile and being genuinely happy

its easy

going through it

its hard

even tho its hard,

but i do it so you dont worry about me

you worry for us so much you don't even take care of yourself

i tried convincing you that you'll be fine

so believe me

hope you'll be perfectly fine after your operation

till then,

i guess its hard to blog the way i use too

so there will be no more posting from me

but my good friend joel will blog

if he has the time,

cheers readers,

god bless you all

boredom is not a motivation to blog

current status : bored

future status : bored

past status : bored

as almost of all you know, im currently in JB

which means im bored,

i was suppose to work for my mom

but i guess it didnt work out..

why?

simply because i refuse to wake up early as well as the metal tooth..

anyway

my mom told me that she wants to go back to KL on sunday

she said drive down ok?

i said np!

but once im down there i wont come back here

and she was ok lor..

simple conversation,

im sorry mom...

i really cant take the life in JB

it is so boring

i have nothing to do here

plus the internet went down and all i have is my joke book

but thank god,

in malaysia!

we have starbucks!!

and thank starbucks for its free wifi,

all u gotta do, is purchase a 10 over ringgit drink and u can use te internet all day long

how cool is tat?

thats all for tonite!

and my lovely baby J,

if u are reading this..

please blog,

get drunk or something..