this year itself put more than enough of worries in my mind.
well it started off with my car accident,
thank god no one was hurt
then things got better after that for sure.
i had great times spent
good memories to remember
but right now,
everything seems to be wrong.
my mom is getting an operation on tuesday.
and lets pray she'll be fine after that.
sometimes i feel like running away,
but doing that does not solve anything.
i've spent sleepless nights thinking on how and what should i do?
was what i did a right or wrong move?
and i always come up with no solutions,
i always wonder if things can get better?
or will it just vanish and things will just be different
will things fall back into place
or fall into pieces that could never be put back together?
the only thing i could do is convince myself
things would be better
things are great
be happy
but as long as i can do it
i still have a limit to it
you always ask if we have problems
you always tried to make us open up to you
of course we have problems,
its only that we dare not open to you
putting a fake smile and being genuinely happy
its easy
going through it
its hard
even tho its hard,
but i do it so you dont worry about me
you worry for us so much you don't even take care of yourself
i tried convincing you that you'll be fine
so believe me
hope you'll be perfectly fine after your operation
till then,
i guess its hard to blog the way i use too
so there will be no more posting from me
but my good friend joel will blog
if he has the time,
cheers readers,
god bless you all
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